June 2009
83 posts
I'M FUCKING DONE
jenyoung:
tehyalotus-x:
With tumblr. Dumb bitches have to look into my personal life because they feel bad about themself, aw. :] Then have to go tell everyone. Yayayayay. /goes to find some other source of online blog
Well, I mean, if you post it on a blog for the world to read, what’s the difference if someone is just talking about it?
I orignally had this blog just for a couple people to...
I'M FUCKING DONE
With tumblr. Dumb bitches have to look into my personal life because they feel bad about themself, aw. :] Then have to go tell everyone. Yayayayay. /goes to find some other source of online blog
I fucking hate today.
Why the hell did all of this have to be on THIS day? Fathers day of all days. I don’t get to see my dad, not that I want to. But it’d feel a little fucking better knowing that he’s sober and not going into hospitals for heroine over-doses. Or knowing he’s not going around talking into a recorder and talking to no one like someone is there. NOT ONLY THAT, BUT AMBER LEFT...
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Amber’s been gone on a walk for a while… It’s starting to scare me… I think I’m going to go look for her…
It's been nice.
Last night we had a bonfire. Mom was out here for a while with us, we had smores. Omnomnomnom. Eventually my mom went inside. I went in to get things, and noticed she was laying in bed, so she’d be in for the rest of the night. Amber and I just sat here, where I am now, in our camping chairs, in front of the bonfire, smoking. I talked to Levi on the phone for a little bit. It was nice. Amber...
sarahsaysvivir:
sarah htehya j: non-twitter user and proud.
LOL
ツ тεнуα ℓσтυs; says: *so you and levi are going to visit me in july right? *when im in lake park LovinLotusLife says: *fo sho ツ тεнуα ℓσтυs; says: *Fuck yeah *I’m even more excited now LovinLotusLife says: *ii will walk if need be ツ тεнуα ℓσтυs; says: *You don’t need to walk ten miles. If my grandma is there, which she normally is, she’s really nice....
collintaco:
Squidward and I can relate. I’m a winner too :/
I’M A WINNER, SEE MY PRIZE. YOU’RE A LOSER WHO SITS AND CRIES.
(ci) Mr.Qeeja Man (ci) E-17 (D) I’d rather smoke another cigarette and know I’m going to die. say: can i make a deal with you? (ci) Mr.Qeeja Man (ci) E-17 (D) I’d rather smoke another cigarette and know I’m going to die. say: mhm (ci) Mr.Qeeja Man (ci) E-17 (D) I’d rather smoke another cigarette and know I’m going to die. say: august (ci) Mr.Qeeja Man (ci) E-17...
Saw it coming.
(ci) Mr.Qeeja Man (ci) E-17 (D) I’d rather smoke another cigarette and know I’m going to die. says: lol i cant stay with her (ci) Mr.Qeeja Man (ci) E-17 (D) I’d rather smoke another cigarette and know I’m going to die. says: she dont like my dogs (ci) Mr.Qeeja Man (ci) E-17 (D) I’d rather smoke another cigarette and know I’m going to die. says: and she says...
Whoa.
Hit by intense random depression…
“They say right when they flood the house and they tear it to shreds that…...”
– Donnie from Donnie Darko
I don’t know why I have such a hard time talking about my dad. I want to talk to him at least one more time until he dies. I just don’t know if I’ll ever be able to, or what the hell I would even say. Would I, or in fact, should I, take back the things I’ve said to him? He’s hurt me so much in my life. He’s been in and out. And everytime he’s been in my...
Rosendo Alfredo Lopez;
(One of the many entries I’m going to make about invidiual people that have made an impact on my life.)
He’s simply amazing, and we’ve been through a lot of things together. This kid can always make me smile even when I’m in the worst of moods. I trust this kid with my life. We both still have a connection with one another. I wouldn’t care what happens as long as we are still friends. Of...
“How to tell the difference between love and loss. Everything you lose, helps you...”
– Janelle (Nellie) Johnson
“A building gets torched, all that is left is ashes. I used to think that was...”
– The Crow
Collin says: *ballin’ ;D *I think *chupa means suck *maybe *fuck people ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *>.> /goes to check Collin says: *<.< some spanish bitch told me *so maybe she’s right ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *:l it says it means chupa Collin says: *wtf :/ *try *wait *what are you doing? ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *google translator >.> Collin says: *try...
Fuck, I love him.
ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *oh fuck you Collin says: *fuck you too ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *no bueno Collin says: *well fine *I thought it would be beuno fucking, I guess not *MUCHOS GRANDES *PENES ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *LOOOOOOOOOL
LMFAO
Collin says: *I was having an awesome piss (it was awesome) and I was just standing over it peeing *and it’s like *hey i’m a tiny ass toilet. *Like serious my dick was bigger than the toilet. and I have a tiny peepee *WHAT *just kidding ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *LMFAP *LMFAO *LMFAO
Just got an update on my dad.
I guess sometime in the past year he’s been in the hospital for a heroine overdose. He’s asked for our phone number before so he could get a hold of me, but no one would give it to him. He walks around with a tape recorder talking to it, while no one is there. On the tape, most of it is about me. “I have to help Tehya. Tehya’s getting raped.” Things like that.
Such...
Collin says: *oror shove her face lips down her throat all the way through her asshole and bring them back through her nose out her vagina *what. *WHAT. *WHAT *yeah that was a bit bad
“You either die a hero, or you live long enough to see yourself become the...”
– The Dark Knight
If I seem to be moody this week..
Sorry, it’s just going to be very emotional for me. June 18th is when I broke up with Rosendo. June 19th is when I saw Levi. June 21st is when me and Levi first started dating. I regret breaking up with Rosendo a lot. Everytime we talk now it’s so amazing, just like before.
And how he was saying he loved me before, he would be hesitant, and make it seem like he’s meaning it...
Aparently I'm a demon.
What Paranormal creature do you symbolize?
Demon You don’t really care about anything. You are devious and mischievous but who cares? It’s too much fun to pass out on! You scare some people, but who needs friends when you have worthless rats who either worship or serve you…or both! You are evil, good thing you don’t believe in religion otherwise you might join Satan. Be...
Question one: Ready to spill your guts?
Sure. Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend at the moment? N/A Where are you? My room. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? Mellow Yellow. Are you in a good mood? Not at all. Do you want to have kids? One… Someday… Do you believe in true love? Yes. Do you like to wear sweatpants? Love it. Are you wearing them right now? Nope, PJ pants. Have you ever stolen a sign from a...
shaking. twitching. throwing shit. NO BIG DEAL.
Emma; Amber; and anyone else who wants to come;
We’re all going to take a little road trip to Hancock. Our prize? Beating the shit out of Bev. That sounds lovely… :)
…Shaking…. I hate this…
Stranger: helo You: Hello Stranger: where u from? You: Hell You: What’cha gunna do? Take you out back, and stomp you to the floor. Knock your ass around like you was my little whore. Pussy cunt bitch, step into my fucking crew. 10-6 mother fucker, whatcha gunna do? Pistol whip you mother fucker talking huge shit. Put the gun up in your face and you realized God split. He’s letting Christians die,...
SO I WAS SUPER LAME AND DID TAROT READING ONLINE. It told me to ask a question, and I did. >.> I asked about Levi. This is what I got. **Chariot 7 — Success is in sight and you have the drive to make it happen. Your Chariot card will take you there. Now obstacles abound but maintain focus and your goal will be in your grasp soon. Be a gracious winner! ** Sage 5 — The Sage is the...
:;:Amber Sweet:;: [ come up and try my new parts ] I love a man with a big scythe says: *i spent all of today thinking it was tuesday ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *…It’s not Tuesday? :;:Amber Sweet:;: [ come up and try my new parts ] I love a man with a big scythe says: *…no its wednesday ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *…Oh. :;:Amber Sweet:;: [ come up and try my new parts ] I...
Ӝ Ciarin Ӝ E-17 Fading Away. says: *s *’ *d *’fg *;’ *me funno ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *me funno Ӝ Ciarin Ӝ E-17 Fading Away. says: *font make dunna me! ツ Tehya Lotus; says: *LOL
I have a fear of...
Opinions.
Compliments.
Heights.
Death.
Men.
Love.
Rejection.
Opening up.
Dying alone.
Levi. (Hard to explain)
Other’s that I can’t think of right now.
Hahahaha.
Piss off.
I can't fucking believe this.
God fucking damn it. Bev talked to Levi and said that she trusts Levi, but not when it comes to me. And then I tried talking to him, and he said he didn’t want to talk. He never says that when it comes to me. Well apparently he does. Ha. He said he didn’t want to lose Bev again. So I basically ruined the one persons happiness that I didn’t want to ruin. God fucking danm it. I...
Have you been called a slut before: Yes. Did it bother you: Nope. Have you ever thought you were in love: Yes. Have you ever swam in the ocean: Nope. Have you ever surfed?: Nope. Was it fun: N/A Have you ever walked out on the break water to a light house: Nope. Have you ever been inside a light house: Nope. Ever climbed rocks: Yes. Was it fun: Yes. Who did you do it with: A lot of...
I guess if I can get a ride to see Levi before July I can see him in before then. Before he said not until July. And now he’s saying something about he might not be able to see me in July. Lol, I don’t know. But I need to see him soon, apparently.
I’m not going to give up. I’ll get through whatever I need to.
I love how every time I have a huge break down… No one is online that I can talk to.
Not Amber. Not Emma. Not Jerrod. Not Collin. Not Sarah.
Not one person that I can talk to.
So here I am, listening to songs that I shouldn’t be listening to. Crying my fucking eyes out. Wishing I was fucked up. Wanting the pills. Wanting my ways back. It’d be so easy to escape. So...
I giggled and smiled.
Ӝ Ciarin Ӝ I don’t care what you think, I’m not seeing a shrink. I’m not doing this again. says: *ok im not gunna lie *i want to get high as hell with you and fuck
“You know the irony of life is that you have like, this big dream to get where...”
– “Take Me Home” - Insane Clown Posse
Last night was pretty shit. I’m so pissed at Christian right now you have no idea. He’s treating out friendship like we’re in a relationship. He broke up with Deanna because Deanna got jealous and he can’t handle jealousy. Yet, he’s jealous that I hang out with Deanna a lot because he thinks that “Deanna is getting in between us.” I’m sorry,...
Rosendo just told me he loves me again… Again.
Your mask is pain. For some reason or another you just can’t seem to find a positive outlook on life. You get angry when people try to relate with how you feel, because you’re convinced they won’t understand. Deep down you know there should be a million reasons for people to want to get to know you, but you often find yourself closing yourself off from those around you. You have...
ツ Tehya Lotus; I love a man with a big axe says: *:( *I miss you Collin says: *I miss you too *but *it’s summer. *ya know what that means? ツ Tehya Lotus; I love a man with a big axe says: *What does that mean? Collin says: *more collin and tehya bff timez ツ Tehya Lotus; I love a man with a big axe says: *YES YES YES YES YES Collin says: *si si si si...
“Everyone has three lives: a public life, a private life, and a secret life.”
I haven’t been so excited for something in forever. I can’t fucking wait until July. For more than one reason.
Amber, me, Emma. Fuck yeah. (: <3 Going to the fair, and I’m going to try and get over fears of rides. Staying up all night, watchings movies. Me beating people if I see ‘em.
Then, a couple days after that, going to my Uncle Seans. <3 Seeing my cousins and...
Rosendo told me he loved me again today.